Be Radiant

How many times have a said I’ll do something then….(fizzle snap)

Distractals and sparklies abide everywhere: Facebook, Pinterest, TV, magazines, snacking, housework, playing with the beasties…so many things to do instead of self-analysis.  Why is it tough to look inside?

As mentioned in my last post, I’m exploring my values – unearthing the unconscious ones and examining if I’m in alignment with the ones I THINK I live by.  Right now, I’m examining why I’m avoiding examining! 

Do I value introspection? Emphatically, yes!  It fits with my values of open-mindedness and balance, as well as a part of what feeds my spirit.  It's about examining my beliefs, my thoughts, my motives, learning why I feel and act the way I do.  How else can I discover my purpose in life as well as my programming?  One by one I peel away each layer of belief that really isn't mine.  I might have borrowed it to fill a gap or simply accepted it through trust, peer pressure or just plain laziness.  Those ideas garnered from family, friends, teachers and TV that I’ve blindly accepted – for good or bad – how do they serve me?  How do they harm me?

There is no truth, folks, only perception.  So if all of this navel-gazing contemplation is so valuable, why am I avoiding it? 

Because whether you deal with it or live with it, your perception is altered.  You have to ask yourself if you’re living/acting/breathing your core values.  If you’re not living your core values, your energy is leaking.  If you ARE…then you’re radiant. 

So where to start?  Navel gazing is best done in small doses.  Instead of shutting down on introspection overload, here's how I handle it:

·        Focus on one thing and follow it.  Jot down digressions for another time.

·        Live with the new knowledge for a few weeks…or more.  Roll it around, see what it feels like.

·        Finally, change…or don’t, but either way follow the energy.

Now go be radiant.

Majeeda Rosa

Just be

Lazy Days of Comfort

I love the unfolding of spring into summer. Sweet scented orange blossoms caressing the evening breeze and floating through the window. Lilac blossoms bursting out in a brief frenzy of perfume. The return of the butterflies. Sitting in the garden and feeling the warm sunlight kissing my skin. My lullaby into warm darkness: hearing the comforting drone of a lawnmower in the distance as the last vestiges of evening sunlight slant across the yard and porch.

These are golden moments when time stands still.

Tick Tock Tick Tock,
Jumping over the hands of the clock
Grabbing the moment and hanging on
Gently, gently…drawing an eon…
Out of the well of time.

Is time flying for anyone else? I’ll be taking an extended leave from work toward the end of the month to recover from surgery. I’ll be suspended from my usual pursuits – work, household chores, walking around the city, meeting friends. I’ll be in suspension while I heal, a cocoon of gestation as my body emerges from limitations and pain to…recovery and discovery.

I’ll have plenty of time to experience the abundant nature we have in our yard. We’re at the end of the suburbs, not quite rural, but with fields adjoining our property. Our neighbors include mother horses with their frisky colts, jack rabbits and pheasants, garden snakes, bees, mice, a scrub jay who returns every year to our yard, hummingbirds and woodpeckers and many more feathered friends. We enjoy vegetable gardens, citrus and nut trees, grapes and berries, and a beautiful new maple tree my husband planted last month that will explode in crimson color in October. Things are usually pretty busy around here. I try to stop and actually take in the abundance we have rather than flying by in passing with an afterthought of “I should spend more time with this.”

Life finds a way of giving me what I want, in this case time to enjoy what I have, even if the method is unexpected and long and painful in manifesting. Oh, if you could only hear the sigh of relief and acceptance for what is unfolding drowning out the natural anxiety that accompanies injury.

How will you enjoy your summer?  I hope you'll slow down, if only for a moment.  You can find an eternity in a moment.

Beloved One, you who made this beautiful abundant world for us to enjoy in all its sensuousness, I surrender to my body, this instrument of experience my spirit resides in while here on this earth.

Majeeda Rosa