Be Radiant

How many times have a said I’ll do something then….(fizzle snap)

Distractals and sparklies abide everywhere: Facebook, Pinterest, TV, magazines, snacking, housework, playing with the beasties…so many things to do instead of self-analysis.  Why is it tough to look inside?

As mentioned in my last post, I’m exploring my values – unearthing the unconscious ones and examining if I’m in alignment with the ones I THINK I live by.  Right now, I’m examining why I’m avoiding examining! 

Do I value introspection? Emphatically, yes!  It fits with my values of open-mindedness and balance, as well as a part of what feeds my spirit.  It's about examining my beliefs, my thoughts, my motives, learning why I feel and act the way I do.  How else can I discover my purpose in life as well as my programming?  One by one I peel away each layer of belief that really isn't mine.  I might have borrowed it to fill a gap or simply accepted it through trust, peer pressure or just plain laziness.  Those ideas garnered from family, friends, teachers and TV that I’ve blindly accepted – for good or bad – how do they serve me?  How do they harm me?

There is no truth, folks, only perception.  So if all of this navel-gazing contemplation is so valuable, why am I avoiding it? 

Because whether you deal with it or live with it, your perception is altered.  You have to ask yourself if you’re living/acting/breathing your core values.  If you’re not living your core values, your energy is leaking.  If you ARE…then you’re radiant. 

So where to start?  Navel gazing is best done in small doses.  Instead of shutting down on introspection overload, here's how I handle it:

·        Focus on one thing and follow it.  Jot down digressions for another time.

·        Live with the new knowledge for a few weeks…or more.  Roll it around, see what it feels like.

·        Finally, change…or don’t, but either way follow the energy.

Now go be radiant.

Majeeda Rosa

Just be

Viva la Résistance!

All week long I've had ideas about topics I'd like to write about. I had three ideas alone just driving over to the coffee shop this afternoon. And yet...

 

There's that pesky resistance, digging its heels in and crossing its arms.

 

I'm perplexed. I LIKE writing! Why avoid it? Well, let's see:

• I’m no expert - plenty of folks out there know more than I.
• I had an idea, then read about it on another blog.
• Why would talking about myself appeal to others? Seriously, how many people are reading this blog?

You get the idea. I'm sure I'm not alone in doing this - do you judge yourself into paralysis? The best way to tame my monster is to answer these questions.

 

There is so much to write about! And who's more knowledgeable than myself about fear and love, stumbling and learning? We all have expertise in that. I write about my journey through life as I peel away my layers of fear to expose, and live within, my authentic heart. I have to believe there’s some authority in that.

 

Oh man! Someone else just wrote about "my" idea - That's OK, I can take it and run with it anyway. I can use their material (with links and credit of course) to springboard my own thoughts on the subject. Sharing my love of learning includes connecting my readers with other experiences that help peel the fear away, help them live authentically. I remind myself that my input is about perception and not perfection.

 

This last one is always a tough one. Who cares? I care. I yearn to help others as much as myself. Sometimes helping myself IS helping others. Living by example - and failing and living some more by example - I hope to help others recognize their own sacred humanity as I recognize my own. Selfish? Maybe. I hope not. I find it scary, but good, right, and gratifying.

 

Finally, Gentle Reader, this is where I expose my soft, vulnerable, squirmy inner self: What do YOU get from my blog? I’d really like to read your comments on this.

Lord, thank you for courage. Thank you for friends. Thank you for the ability to self-reflect. Thank you for the hand that reaches out to grasp tightly during moments of vulnerability and uncertainty. Thank you for knowledge.

Majeeda Rosa