Be Radiant

How many times have a said I’ll do something then….(fizzle snap)

Distractals and sparklies abide everywhere: Facebook, Pinterest, TV, magazines, snacking, housework, playing with the beasties…so many things to do instead of self-analysis.  Why is it tough to look inside?

As mentioned in my last post, I’m exploring my values – unearthing the unconscious ones and examining if I’m in alignment with the ones I THINK I live by.  Right now, I’m examining why I’m avoiding examining! 

Do I value introspection? Emphatically, yes!  It fits with my values of open-mindedness and balance, as well as a part of what feeds my spirit.  It's about examining my beliefs, my thoughts, my motives, learning why I feel and act the way I do.  How else can I discover my purpose in life as well as my programming?  One by one I peel away each layer of belief that really isn't mine.  I might have borrowed it to fill a gap or simply accepted it through trust, peer pressure or just plain laziness.  Those ideas garnered from family, friends, teachers and TV that I’ve blindly accepted – for good or bad – how do they serve me?  How do they harm me?

There is no truth, folks, only perception.  So if all of this navel-gazing contemplation is so valuable, why am I avoiding it? 

Because whether you deal with it or live with it, your perception is altered.  You have to ask yourself if you’re living/acting/breathing your core values.  If you’re not living your core values, your energy is leaking.  If you ARE…then you’re radiant. 

So where to start?  Navel gazing is best done in small doses.  Instead of shutting down on introspection overload, here's how I handle it:

·        Focus on one thing and follow it.  Jot down digressions for another time.

·        Live with the new knowledge for a few weeks…or more.  Roll it around, see what it feels like.

·        Finally, change…or don’t, but either way follow the energy.

Now go be radiant.

Majeeda Rosa

Just be

It’s Aliiiiiive!!

Yes, like the zombie dead, I’m back!   

Except for without all the gross decaying flesh and moaning. 

During these months away, I’ve been focusing on some of the things I value: relationships, spirituality and health among them.  In fact, I’ve been exploring what my values are.  You’d think I’d know them – don’t we all practice our values everyday through our behaviors?  Then I started really trying to define my values.   

And that’s where I fell down the rabbit hole. 

Trying to pinpoint my personal definition of each core value was hard!  Some values seemed to cluster together and define each other.  Trying to define a value without using the behaviors that demonstrate the value was very difficult.  One answer led to many answers and even more questions.  It became a maze of enlightenment with many “aha” moments. 

Hard work my friends.  And I’ve only explored one of my many values so far.  I’ll share my results with you soon. 

I invite you to explore your values with me.  Start with these questions and see where it takes you:

·        What do I value?

·        How do I define it?

·        What does it look like?

Majeeda Rosa

Just Be

Staking a claim

Can you believe it’s already Autumn?  I incorporated some healthier habits this summer.  I improved my choices in how I care for myself, physically and emotionally.  Some of them were big, like walking regularly, taking time to get a pedicure and realizing it’s OK to be angry when I feel anger!  Some of them were small, like taking vitamins, drinking a glass of water in the morning and not rushing or skipping out on doing small things for myself.

And then my intentions came crashing down.

Why?

I’m still figuring that out.  In a nutshell a few events happened last month.  Someone close to me treated me disrespectfully.  I was put into a position of cleaning up someone else’s mess due to their carelessness and lack of control.   Stressed out, physically and emotionally sick with it, I went into defensive mode and tried to bend myself in such a way that I could accommodate this new and alien environment and fix whatever I could fix.  All the new habits I acquired went out the window, not because I didn’t have time for them, but because…because…

And that’s what I’m trying to figure out.  I can see that I went back into old patterns of fixing and bending - I’m still figuring out how I should have handled that whole scenario – but why abandon the healthier habits?  I’m treading carefully as I explore this one; I know I’m on the right track because I’m very uncomfortable with what I’m writing:

Do I feel I need to deserve health?  If health and vitality are the goals, do I feel I need to earn them or is it my right to have them and sustain them?  Well, there’s logic….and then there’s the heart’s logic.  I'll keep saying this until I mean it:

Right now, right this second, I claim my right to health. 

Are there things you need to “earn” instead of claim?

Majeeda Rosa

Just Be